urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:thin45thin45thin45thin452009-07-28T00:58:49Zurn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:thin45:2312Wow2009-07-28T00:58:49Z2009-07-28T00:58:49ZSo much has changed! Wow. This is the first time I have been on this account since, 2 years ago? Oh my.<br />Well, to start off. I'm not this thin girl people always perceived me as anymore. I mean, I'm not obese, but I am not where I want to be.<br />So, I decided that everyday (or whenever I can log on) I am going to post an entry about my eating habits and what not. We'll see how this goes.<br /><br />Today was not a great day. Had to work at 9:15 am. And then I got off work way early. I hate when my work does that, then that means I will be going home and my boyfriend, who will remain nameless also, was working today so I had nothing better to do than sit at home, watch tv, and eat my fat ass away! When I looked in the mirror the other day I nearly cried. The backs of my thighs and also my inner crotch area has purple stretch marks all over them. Jesus. That is so gross. I could not possibly wear a bathing suit now. God I want to rip out all the fat.<br />Good news is that as soon as I get off this birth control shot I should stop eating excessively. Hopefully. Since I started that stupid shot I've gone up almost 10 lbs. RIDICULOUS.<br />I started at 110 lbs.<br />Now I am 119.5 lbs, last time checked at the doctor's office.<br /><br />So, my goal is to not starve myself constantly, but to just be thin again. So tomorow my plan is this: No breakfast, only iced tea. Maybe 2. Then I will go to work at 11 am, and I'm not too sure when I will be getting off. But when I do, and if I go home I will try to not eat anything, but if I have to I will have 1 bowl of cereal, that's it.<br /><br />Hoping I can do it!<br />Wish me luck, good night.